Sunday, January 26, 2014


My heart broke with your anger
I wanted to please you
I wanted to be the one
Who made you smile
So you would love me
And cherish me
The way my Father did.

I made mistakes and you yelled
You shouted
You left me without options
With no choices
And I failed
To bring you joy
To bring you peace.

I wanted to show you I could love
That you were worthy of love
That you deserved love
I wanted love
But you could not love
Because I was a failure.

I didn't really love you
I needed you
Your approval
Because I hated myself so
I was raised on hate
I was raised on fear
Approval kept me from being beaten
If you didn't approve
I failed
And I was beaten.


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About Sash

People call me "Sash" because I'm a former beauty queen in my old home town. My father used to ride in an MC which got me interested in the culture. After my last divorce I said "goodbye" to Susie Homemaker and became the naughty, biker chick I always felt inside. (Read more...)